the cliffhanger that i love

, originally uploaded by magic is mine.

as a couple, we have been through tumultuous times, because he is a cliffhanger, and i am more a hugger. we are now sharing a sweet, but somewhat flimsy apartment by the sea and we are keeping each other warm and happy. i have grown a beard for cliffhanging behaviors.

i am so looking forward to summer times here, then i can proudly invite people over to this side of the river.

keywords for the month:
Bogota
Borges
Greens
Bird
Gorecki
Muffins
oh
and

Singer!

When i leave myself enough time to enjoy public transport rides, i really love it. slow stroll on melbourne trams, high school students, simple gratitude towards the person driving me. then then i start to miss rides in double decker buses in London, you get to see so much details up there.

a little ballad of new pens and pencils

a little ballad of new pens and pencils, originally uploaded by magic is mine.

while this little ballad was taking shape, i had a vision of it hanging in a nice museum with people walking by admiring it like how i'd admire a miro or klee. it has the quality; it is my museum piece! :p

recently i have had many thoughts about professional paths. i am seriously contemplating an art conservation course, but at the same time i get distracted when i read these amazing people's blogs about the thesis they are writing, the conferences they are attending, the ideas they are stimulating, and for a moment i'm tempted to give into academia. Or i look at these
amazing people's blogs and think that i should just dedicate to art. But i guess a person can't have all at once, and a resolution must be near.

an art workshop was held at the library last week, run by ghostpatrol and miso. holy cow! i found out she's only 21.

ha, and i had nightmares of my ailing body going around melbourne town pasting up my own illegal street art. oh, how i suffer!

this is what i drew when camille recorded her retina changes in the park

this is what i drew, originally uploaded by magic is mine.

2010 has commenced, and nothing has happened, and now it is april time!

i had so many good feelings about this picturesque new year. but things seem to be down slope at the moment. these are the tasks i will perform to make it all better - 2010 will still kickass:

read 30 books
blog at least once a week
linocut prints
bookbinding
master my digital camera
new road bicycle
persian
volunteering

bang

bang, originally uploaded by magic is mine.

today i turn 29, i have never done this before, but today i thought it would be nice to note the state of my being. i am a little lethargic from a weekend fishing trip and i have just cleaned up my room. I often, still, find it hard to believe that dom and i are holding hands again, and for that, i feel very special in the excitement and comfort of love.

i have been working at the st. kilda library for 5 months now, it is almost a job too good to desire. it pays well, and allows me the freedom to do other things. Yet i have not done as much drawings as i would like to, and sometimes i crave for a more intellectually stimulating environment. so there are still so much to be worked out. i am always conscious that this too graceful stage of stability and comfort will run out, and i am working on it on it.

my creative energy is a bit low but i know it's there. i await the creative bang bang.

i have met some sweetest great new friends. i think about, and dearly miss one old missy, but i also withdraw.

i am listening to oliver mann, who is my new favorite.

i ought to be playing more music and sleeping less in the mornings.

i like sea shells.

new outfit

nice outfit, originally uploaded by magic is mine.

hey today i decided to write more of this blog in the english language, so i can be closer to the people around me. hence the new outfit. but of course there will still be patches of chinese writing which i think poetry and hopefully i will be able to express some of that in the english language.

windy day / nice outfit / babka bread.

island

island, originally uploaded by 痛.

我用醜陋的四肢支撐著一整座島嶼 和很多的空白 或是無限的可能

後抓先 （later catches earlier: a game)

後抓先 （later catches earlier: a game), originally uploaded by 痛.

click on image to see full picture;) okease!



everything look so good in the photos,

然後吵雜的聲音 偉大的志向圍繞著

一直在這裡頭打轉著，還要不停被社會的下一步 人群的期待給推著往下一直走

-----------------------


又回到了原點打轉 在大逃亡之後，

比上次還辛苦的轉著： 是沒有出口的事


就這樣，信念在中心點打轉著
一不小心 就把自己的態度 孤獨的自尊給轉掉了。

然後 everything look so good in the photos

吵雜的聲音越來越難消化。




若干年後，連打轉也沒力氣 像洩皮球般的一直被往前推時
信念在中心點發出了哀嚎 如 lenoard cohen 那般沉痛，

中心點發痛的吼著

the melancholy of undefeatable dongfang

the melancholy of undefeatable dongfang, originally uploaded by 痛.

這些日子到底在過些什麼

看似平靜 快樂的日子其實被很深很深的不安和壓力籠罩著
我們溫柔的渡過這些日子 對之後的分離意味著什麼
現在我把整顆心都給你時 天知道我是真的不想讓這一切結束
天知道我這麼這麼的悲傷卻無法改變這一切
那這麼這麼多的美好和柔情我是要怎麼去消化？
我其實是越來越難過 越來越難過

那樣子的難過像脫了韁的野馬 如果沒辦法好好處理的話
會有可怕的事情發生 但我現在除了把她壓在那裡外
還不知道怎麼處理 怎麼想都只是更難過
然後想著之後的論文 下一步 未來 人生 一切都很提不起勁
偶爾會為某個想法興奮一下 我似乎知道會沒問題
但在這個時空裡 這些事情都被真空包裝了 然後就被那不安和壓力麻木著

(失心瘋從這裡起跳的）

七月九日 巴黎

我想我是要飛了

我快要走到對岸了
過了今天晚上加個明天 我就到了
再也不害怕溺閉和到不了對岸的事情

期待眼睛看到的新天空和眼淚不會漾出來的鏡子
頭腦清晰的不得了的期待著美麗人生

能這樣寫出來 我想我是真的好起來了

激動的快飛了起來 但必需過了今天晚上加明天

無題

我非常深刻的不知道自己怎麼了 一整天不吃東西也不會感到慌亂 感覺自己應該要健康起來 卻無可奈何的讓體內一切一直留失
我時常覺得眼睛看不到 牙齒掉光 腿站不直那天好像快要來臨
但在那來臨前 我卻要每天盡可能的打起精神面對該完成的事情 然後在睡意來臨前回到那我越來越賴已生存的黑暗
生命中美好的一切在消耗 面對愛我的人我一直在振作 可是那一直振作的後面是什麼

我想破了頭也不知道怎樣能讓自己更好 請不要看不起我 不要責罵我
我也超級討厭看到別人這樣的死氣沉沉 所以我說我非常深刻的不知道自己怎麼了

我是不是快要死掉了 我試著呼喊

hue

backtrack, originally uploaded by 痛.

wild days brought back to me by the fliers, the smell, the lift
in that odd brownish building

原來我沒有進步
我還是矯情 還是瘋狂
沒什麼值得驕傲的事還是自大 還是不夠努力
還是容易退縮 還是愛的熱烈
還是會羨慕 還是會極端

不同的是 我已不再青春
不再有自大的資格
而且我開蹺了 看透了夢想和人生的虛無
可是還是逃不開對愛情的渴望
我把澎湃的心掏出來 讓它一點一滴死去

這樣我會進步吧！

my fishing pond

my fishing pond, originally uploaded by 痛.

this is where my imagination goes wild
my secrets exposed, my dreams recorded
my pond my pond my pond
(click on the image to see the details of my pond, please:)

在他離開後的. . . .

, originally uploaded by a sudden gust.

為他在上面增添了彩虹
增添了跟蹤
增添了不安
增添了粉筆從黑板劃過製造出的心慌
無法自主的令人非常不愉悅的不安

在這下面愛和信任只剩下眼淚

為了逃出這深淵 我只好往下面跳下去
飄在雲層裡 迷迷糊糊的過日子
期待著心誠則靈這件事


(so i jumped from above
passing vague days within clouds
i hoped for a dream come true

feburary, 2008)

apollo

apollo, originally uploaded by a sudden gust.

阿波羅 我該如何面對這片荒蕪

到三月中旬才寫這個好像有點怪 但還是決定稍稍清單一下去年
鋪陳一下今年

２００７
_reading + essay
_McIlwraith St. (Camille & Guy)
_kappya
_jasmine come back!
_drawing
_dominic
_chopin ballade No. 1
_Proust

２００８
*thesis
*不要期待
*謙卑，不自滿（大重要）
*馬克思的capital
*學習成為能批判社會又不是米蟲的人
*bike riding
*好好吃，好好做yoga
*rock climbing
*craft
*珍惜mike的一切

babushka injury

babushka injury, originally uploaded by a sudden gust.

jasmines future hasband

jasmines future hasband, originally uploaded by a sudden gust.

so slim and juicy!

海螺滿天飛和四隻腳激起的火花

molluscs in the sky and the sparks between four legs, originally uploaded by a sudden gust.

molluscs in the sky and the sparks between four legs

在令人懷念的１９６０年代這種事情令人難以想像

girlonly, originally uploaded by daiimay.

愛情

我看見了
你眼裡的深情 那對我來說
大概是最重要的事情 是我每每想到
就會停止一切動作 幾乎快停止呼吸的事情

我不太確定 我能為這樣的情緒做什麼 噢 或者
這樣的情緒能為我做什麼 能為擁有和不擁有做些什麼
但它存在 是愛情的存在

天長地久是想都不敢想的事 所以
心還能負荷多久這種情緒也不確定 但在那之前

離兩個人的理解 交融 擁有 也許還是很遠
我卻決定了 全心全意的擁抱你給我的這份深情 這份愛情
這份存在的熱切的深情的
拾不得的令人心碎的一切的美好的． 吻．

pipi + the archaeologist

pipi + the archaeologist, originally uploaded by daiimay.

考古學家的工作無限倍困難於抓pipi者
但成就感應該也無限倍 ＞ 於抓pipi者
不過這兩種者是可以一起衡量的
因為工作性質是一樣的！

The work of an archeologist is infinitely harder than a pipi digger. so the reward is infinitely > than the pipi digger.
However, these two professions can be compared on the same scale. because the nature of their work is curiously the same!